Finally I did it.......

YES!!! I finally did it, I lost 50lbs! Well 52lbs on my home scale to be exact, which on the Doctors scale would be 54lbs!  This morning I weighed 260lbs! I am so damn excited! I am also proud of myself, because while in the last two weeks I have gone without a kitchen, eaten every meal at a Restaurant and not been able to go to the gym, I still lost weight! Mind you it was a slllooowww two weeks and I was stuck at 265 for what felt like ever! But damn it I did it!

Now for what happened since my last update.  I went into the Dr.'s on 10-8 and had some fluid (1cc) removed from my band.  It made a world of difference.  Erin my nurse told me I would probably need to come back in about 2 weeks and have a tiny bit put back in.  I think she is right and I will call early next week and make the appointment.  I still really dislike fills and un-fills, but it is a necessary evil.

I am headed out of town for a long weekend with a good friend.  I am so excited about this.  I need the R n R and a good head clearing. I am sure we will take plenty of pics, so I will post a new pic next week if we get a good one.

Funny story from this morning, I pulled on a pair of jeans to get Finn off to school.  I came upstairs and was talking to Pete for a bit and realized these jeans were falling down.  Pete said "you are so small now, kinda like petite". (I know he has biased eyes!)  Then he said, "But you look like a person, well, trying to wear too big pants!"  It is still crazy too me, because two weeks ago these jeans were snug.  Every time I pick up a pair of jeans to put on, I look at them and in my head I think, "there is no way in hell these are going to fit".  And they do, but now they are too big!

Captins log.....

Current weight 265, total weigh loss 47lbs.  I was really liking all this until about last week.  Everything I eat now gets stuck!  It is painful and embarrassing and I really hate it.  I put a call in to the doctor today and I am waiting for a callback.

I am assuming they will do either of these things:
1) Remove all the fluid and put me on liquids for awhile, then refill back to 4cc (I have 6cc now).
2) Remove 1cc and see how that goes.

I would far rather go with option 2.  I really do not want to go to 0 and start over, since I have never experienced the band empty.  I imagine I will be very hungry and not enjoy life very much until they fill it again.  But I am jumping the gun.

So, you may wonder what it feels like to get food stuck.  I will try and explain it.  Have you every gorged yourself on your favorite food? I mean eat until there is actually no more room, so the food just kinda sits in the esophagus.  Think Thanksgiving and you might get the idea. Well, it feels like that, but then add the worst indigestion pain you have ever felt.  Then the burping starts.  After you burp you feel better for a minute.  I think that is because the burp lifts the food up and off the band temporarily.  The food then sits back down on the band and it all starts over again.  This goes on for about 30 minutes.  It really sucks.  Now the other crappy thing about it is, you might have been starving hungry before you ate that bite.  But once it gets stuck, you are not hungry anymore. My theory on this is that the food is sitting on the band, so it is telling the band to tell your brain you are full.  If this happens early in the meal, as it has been for me, I either don't eat anymore or I force more down knowing the tiny bit I ate will not sustain me. 
I have two fears associated with this problem.
1) I am damaging the band and pouch by stretching it
2) I am screwing up the hernia repair


Needless to say, momma ain't happy.  Anyone who said this is the easy way out should really read this!

Also, we are currently  knee deep in the kitchen remodel, which is not fun, but it will be so worth it!So no functioning kitchen right now.

I am going to try and end this on a happy note though, I have gone down 4 to 5 sizes depending on where the clothes are from! And the current sizes are getting too loose.