Finally I did it.......

YES!!! I finally did it, I lost 50lbs! Well 52lbs on my home scale to be exact, which on the Doctors scale would be 54lbs!  This morning I weighed 260lbs! I am so damn excited! I am also proud of myself, because while in the last two weeks I have gone without a kitchen, eaten every meal at a Restaurant and not been able to go to the gym, I still lost weight! Mind you it was a slllooowww two weeks and I was stuck at 265 for what felt like ever! But damn it I did it!

Now for what happened since my last update.  I went into the Dr.'s on 10-8 and had some fluid (1cc) removed from my band.  It made a world of difference.  Erin my nurse told me I would probably need to come back in about 2 weeks and have a tiny bit put back in.  I think she is right and I will call early next week and make the appointment.  I still really dislike fills and un-fills, but it is a necessary evil.

I am headed out of town for a long weekend with a good friend.  I am so excited about this.  I need the R n R and a good head clearing. I am sure we will take plenty of pics, so I will post a new pic next week if we get a good one.

Funny story from this morning, I pulled on a pair of jeans to get Finn off to school.  I came upstairs and was talking to Pete for a bit and realized these jeans were falling down.  Pete said "you are so small now, kinda like petite". (I know he has biased eyes!)  Then he said, "But you look like a person, well, trying to wear too big pants!"  It is still crazy too me, because two weeks ago these jeans were snug.  Every time I pick up a pair of jeans to put on, I look at them and in my head I think, "there is no way in hell these are going to fit".  And they do, but now they are too big!

Captins log.....

Current weight 265, total weigh loss 47lbs.  I was really liking all this until about last week.  Everything I eat now gets stuck!  It is painful and embarrassing and I really hate it.  I put a call in to the doctor today and I am waiting for a callback.

I am assuming they will do either of these things:
1) Remove all the fluid and put me on liquids for awhile, then refill back to 4cc (I have 6cc now).
2) Remove 1cc and see how that goes.

I would far rather go with option 2.  I really do not want to go to 0 and start over, since I have never experienced the band empty.  I imagine I will be very hungry and not enjoy life very much until they fill it again.  But I am jumping the gun.

So, you may wonder what it feels like to get food stuck.  I will try and explain it.  Have you every gorged yourself on your favorite food? I mean eat until there is actually no more room, so the food just kinda sits in the esophagus.  Think Thanksgiving and you might get the idea. Well, it feels like that, but then add the worst indigestion pain you have ever felt.  Then the burping starts.  After you burp you feel better for a minute.  I think that is because the burp lifts the food up and off the band temporarily.  The food then sits back down on the band and it all starts over again.  This goes on for about 30 minutes.  It really sucks.  Now the other crappy thing about it is, you might have been starving hungry before you ate that bite.  But once it gets stuck, you are not hungry anymore. My theory on this is that the food is sitting on the band, so it is telling the band to tell your brain you are full.  If this happens early in the meal, as it has been for me, I either don't eat anymore or I force more down knowing the tiny bit I ate will not sustain me. 
I have two fears associated with this problem.
1) I am damaging the band and pouch by stretching it
2) I am screwing up the hernia repair


Needless to say, momma ain't happy.  Anyone who said this is the easy way out should really read this!

Also, we are currently  knee deep in the kitchen remodel, which is not fun, but it will be so worth it!So no functioning kitchen right now.

I am going to try and end this on a happy note though, I have gone down 4 to 5 sizes depending on where the clothes are from! And the current sizes are getting too loose.

Stuck on you.....

 I got a feeling down deep in my band that this food just won't go through.

I feel like Lionel Richie lately, everything I eat with any bulk to it gets stuck!  And stuck food hurts!  I know why this is happening:
 1) I eat way too fast for a band patient
2) I do not chew my food enough
3) I eat too big of bites

This morning was the worst.  I left the house at 7:30 to go get the Honda serviced, got home at 10:45 and wanted to eat quickly before Finn's bus came.  So I was on bite number two of fish and log jam.  That shit was stuck!  So I started doing what I call giraffe stretches.  That is basically where I stick my chest out as far as it will go and make my neck and torso as long as possible.  Why you ask?  Because in my simply little brain I think it will help.  Then I started taking cautious sips of water to try and push the food down.  Well folks that is when it happened.  I puked and puked and puked.  It was awful and so uncool.  It was also a let down that I let that happen.  I have got to slow myself down!  So the next time you are out with me and we stop for a bite to eat, just remind me of my Pukey Patti post please?!?!


Tonight I also joined the gym and did a full workout for the first time since I got pregnant with Sophie. I am glad I am blogging tonight because tomorrow my arms may hurt too much to do so.  It was nice to workout out in a gym again, although why do they have to smell so bad?  It was like an instant hit of sweat to the nose when I walked in.  Anyways I am looking to go in the mornings right at 9am for now.  So if anyone works out at Gold's on Broad, feel free to join me! 

Not much else going on.  I  am still losing, it just seems to go in spurts now.  I will stay the same for days, then boom lose 4lbs.  Then start all over again.  My skin is starting to show the signs of weight loss, which I do not like, but have no control over.  This is the main reason I joined the gym tonight, to try and help tone up the skin some.  Hopefully it will help, but I know I will have saggy skin.  That's OK, since in my real world I know very few, like maybe one, person that could pass for a model.  So in my crazy world, I guess I fit right in!

Fill me in........haha get it

I know, I have been slacking!  But between vacation and the entire family being sick, I have been a busy girl! So whats been up?

Well we had a sweet vaca with amazaing friends in Nags Head.  While I ate pretty much what I was supposed to I did drink entirerly too much!  I lost no weight while there but I am honestly happy with that.


Today I had my first fill!  OMG.com was I scared.  I was a wreck, which if you know me leads to trying to make the whole waiting room laugh.  I think my classic line of the day was this one, "Be gentle with my port, it's a virgin".  So this is how it went down.  I took my shirt and stuck it in my bra while standing in the floroscope/x-ray thing.  You could see my port on the screen, which was kinda neat.  Then Erin my nurse took this long needle and inserted it into my port.  This is about the time momma checked out.  Apperently I turned white as a sheet and started sweating, so we talked through this to keep me from going down.  Erin inserted 2cc of saline then left the needle hanging there, while I drank barium.  The barium passed through and the needle came out (which also coincided with my color returning).  Done deal!  I guess that I already had 4cc in my band, so now I am at 6cc total.  I am back on liquids for 2 days then 2 days of soft mushy stuff. 


Good news stuff that happened today. My blood pressure is down from 125/70 to 90/70 (I think we will probably be going off the ole heart medicine).  My weight was 271lbs.  Total weight loss in 49 days is 41lbs.  This is the craziest journey ever!

30 is the new WONDERFUL!

So I said I would and I am.  I hit 30 this morning! Woot Woot!  I think it might even be 32 at the Dr.s so only because you asked I am possting the dreaded before pic and the ones taken tonight.  I am about the most unphotogentic person on earth so here goes nothing....... (look closely you might see a weight listed too)

312lbs taken the night before the liver shrink.  Note:  I am not pregnant!

And taken literally 5 minutes ago:

281lbs as of this am!

So there it is,  not sure when I will post pics again, probably in another month.

Long time, no talk....

I have been slacking on writing the blog this week.  Quite honestly I have been just in a wonderful mood and enjoying life.  Listening to lots of good music with anything by Maroon 5, Sting and The Police topping the list of most played right now.  The weight started falling off again, but I am not really sure how much I have lost now.  Let me explain.  When I started I was over the weight limit on our home scale.  I went by how much my Dr.'s scale read the day before all of this started.  But now I think my home scale is 2lbs higher than the Dr.  SO, if that is true then I think I have lost 29lbs. I go back next Friday so we will see!

I have decided to do monthly pics.  So the first set will post on the 29th.  Pete took a pic of me the night before the live shrink diet.  I had no clue he was taking it and surprisingly enough, we were at Texas De Brazil.  I think I might on that day say my original weight and put up a new goal.  Right now the goals are set by every 10lbs, but I might move up to something bigger.

So, new good thing for the week:  True Lemon and True Lime.  They carry it in the Baking sections of Whole Foods and the new giant Kroger on Broad.  It is crystallized lemon or lime and chopped into sugar size crystals.  I put 2 packets of lime or lemon and 2 packets of Truvia in 8oz of water and it is really really good.  Tastes almost like the real thing. 

Well no one is here and I just downloaded more Maroon 5 on iTunes, time to rock out.  P.S. Does anyone else agree Adam Levine of Maroon 5 is absolutely yummy!?  My extreme R. Patz crush might be fading.....

The fat on my ass moves as sllllooooowwww as ....

MOLASSES right now! So I realize that a few posts back I said this would happen.  I understand it is normal, I understand it happens to most people, but I don't care.  I want this weight gone!  I am not eating  portion sizes fit for Fievel Mouskewitze to not see the scale go down.  So today I added in exercise, I walked on the treadmill and I actually enjoyed it.  I am hoping to wake up and see the scale move in the morning.  So in order to keep me motivated I am going to write a few good things that happened this week:
* I can wear a dress that didn't fit before I lost weight and it is sort of loose!
* Instead of my belly touching the steering wheel, it now sits about 2 inches back from it!  I can see my feet when I drive!
* My knee and ankles no longer hurt!
So I am going to try and focus on these things.  When I get P.O.'d I am going to remember how it was before these great things happened.  I am also going to just keep doing what I am doing, because eventually my body will have to just give up!

Now I need your help!  Tell me some of your favorite songs to workout to.  High energy, good beats, etc.  Right now and in the past these are/were a few of my favorites:
*Katy Perry,  California Gurls
*Guns and Roses,  Paradise City
*Train, Hey Soul Sister
*Eminem, Love the Way You Lie
*Lady Gaga, Alejandro and Bad Romance
*My Chemical Romance,  House of Wolves, Cancer and Mama
* Nike, Mixed Terrain Treadmill Training, various artists
*Green Day, most of their older stuff

I really need music that keeps you going, so put your favs it in the comment section. Thanks!